Yest night i thought i might almost die from the pain in my stomach. I had dejavu feelings of going to A and E in CGH again from acute pain and no i did not want that at all. Vomitted and had to bear through the pain for like 1 hours before i managed to see doctor. Literally begged for a painkiller jab, and waited for another 1 hour for the effect to kicked in. seriously FML.

and now i am still having a headache. omg…….ramblessssssssssssssssss……..

Was counting down the number of weeks left in school..and it dawned upon me that i am left with 5 more school weeks, 1 week of study break, 1 week of exam followed by 1 week of break before i jet off for my grad trip. After the return of my grad trip and 4days thereafter, i will start my pre-reg training in CGH for 9 months.

1st two years:If it wasn’t for darius who offered me a place in sheares hall, i won’t have experience the valuable experiences of tennis and swimming IHG competitions whereby i rmbed i cried like shitz after we lost and won 2gth as doubles player and laughing like crazy even though our swimming team was the last in place, i won’t have enjoyed the experience of being in a geyao band ( the joy of playing and enjoying music together ) and to know so many people who have inspired and influenced me to become a better person.

Third year:After i left hall, I began to know my classmates better, and the joy of enjoying breaks and going home with my classmates bitching abt life and gossiping was sthing that didn exist when i was still staying in hall. For the 2nd semester, i signed up for the UCLA summer programme myself and fortunately, a myriad of different personalities and from different cliques and from different faculty has come together to embark on a happy journey to the United States and coming home with unforgettable memories. 

Coming to the last year:It was a year of confusion and sadness for i didn know what i want in life and the onslaught of FYI was taking a toll on me mentally and emotionally. my parents were the last people i would like to talk to abt my future because they are genetically very controllable and pressurising in every aspects, while i am very thankful for my previous preceptor whom suddenly gave me a call to ask me how i was and advice me on what i should do. It like chuan dao qiao tou zhi ran zhi makes a whole lot of sense to me suddenly. While many people talked about missing sch….i think i will too..but to a lesser extent for i know that i have alr led a very fulfilling 4 years of education/sch life and its time to move on into the work society. cheers to the last 5 weeks of hell.

Exhausted by endless piles of work coupled by the fact that the department thinks we are rubber bands of supreme elasticity. In the last semester of year 4, lecturers are still rushing high volume of information into a set of notes covered in 2 hours, expecting students to do cases+journals sessions+counselling sessions+SDL projects with classes running from 8am to 5pm everyday…etc. In the attempt with the Singaporean approach of “holistic”, we need to know everything under the sun-clinical,industry,chemistry, even English…etc. In a frenzy state, we had to internalise everything at such a fast pace just to score for our papers.

Yet, sustainability of knowledge is not there. And fatigue wears off student’s passion in subject matter. Isn’t it very impractical to force-feed us in this manner?

Is that why are we unable to be a professional pharmacist after 4 years of education, yet requires the 9months to be a full-fledged one. Shouldn’t our curriculum learn something from the medicine/nursing/dentistry schools? Why is that no one has done anything to the curriculum for so many years. It really makes me wonder if they lack the drive to push for better changes or are too satisfied with old practice.

After these 4 years of study, i still feel like a blank sheet of paper.